am not fine but just need to get this out or else i'll have an aneurysm. i promise.
I want to vomit all the time I'm here. I don't care. I can't even bother with any grand description of how I'm feeling. There's no energy to my suicidal ideation anymore. I just want to die. I just want to keel over and die. It's really hard to go on. I'm tired and unloved and unwanted. And everyone is suffering on their own forever and ever. I want to die. GODDD YOURE SO MELODRAMATIC HEATHER ITS NOT A BIG FUCKING DEAL YOURE SUCH A BIIIITCH COME ON YOU'RE A LITTLE WHINY LITTLE FAGGY TEENAGER IN THE ATROPHYING BODY OF A TRANNY IM GOING TO KILL MYSELFFFF IM GOING TO HURT MYSELFFF youre not youre not youre not you're just feeling the same thing youvvee always felt as a kid BUT WHENNNN IS IT GOING TO STOP WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE DIFFERENTTTT youre gonna go to therapy again WHEN IS IT GOING TO NOT FEEL LIKE THIS EVER NO MATTER IF YOU EVER GET A NEW NAME NEW FACE NEW CITY IT ALL LOOKS THE SAME ONCE YOU REALLY STARE IT AT FOR WHAT IT IS THERE IS NO USE I...