am not fine but just need to get this out or else i'll have an aneurysm. i promise.

I want to vomit all the time I'm here.

I don't care.

I can't even bother with any grand description of how I'm feeling.

There's no energy to my suicidal ideation anymore. I just want to die. I just want to keel over and die. It's really hard to go on.

I'm tired and unloved and unwanted.

And everyone is suffering on their own forever and ever. I want to die.


GODDD YOURE SO MELODRAMATIC HEATHER ITS NOT A BIG FUCKING DEAL

YOURE SUCH A BIIIITCH COME ON

YOU'RE A LITTLE WHINY LITTLE FAGGY TEENAGER IN THE ATROPHYING BODY OF A TRANNY


IM GOING TO KILL MYSELFFFF IM GOING TO HURT MYSELFFF

youre not youre not youre not

you're just feeling the same thing youvvee always felt as a kid

BUT WHENNNN IS IT GOING TO STOP

WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE DIFFERENTTTT

youre gonna go to therapy again

WHEN IS IT GOING TO NOT FEEL LIKE THIS EVER

NO MATTER IF YOU EVER GET A NEW NAME NEW FACE NEW CITY 

IT ALL LOOKS THE SAME ONCE YOU REALLY STARE IT AT FOR WHAT IT IS

THERE IS NO USE IN RUNNING

THERE IS NO USE IN ACCEPTANCE

THERE IS NO USE IN LOVING YOURSELF

USELESS BITCH

REDUNDANT FUCKING BITCH

YOU'RE NOT EVEN SCHIZOPHRENIC OR SCHIZOTYPICAL YOU'RE JUST A WHINY FUCKING BITCH

 

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