ketamine clause / body genre

i think of the little chart in that body genre article temporality of fantasy: too late / too early / on time! we are just passing by each other whenever we have our moments

im bottling up
surrender yourself
turn up the volume as high as you possibly can
god it'll save your life
it always sounds quieter every time you have to do this
even though you force that fucking dial as far to the right as you can
thHTHHEE END IS NEAR

she's too sensitive to sound
she's too sensitive to light
tinnitus and photosensitivity
i was blessed with perfect teeth but my skin molts like a bird
live in this skin live in this fucking skin that scratches off like a lotto ticket
you're not gonna win

im bottling up
surrend yourself
for gods sake
you're fucking dying rain
holy shit you've been dying this whole fucking time
you're dying and youre alone
and you're not laying next to a girl who knows exactly how you feels
you're fucking alone forever
stop trying to expose your heart
your rapidly beating freaking the fuck out drug addled heart
your melodrama is too late!
your horror is too early!
your pornography is... on time!?

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