scream out to the valley that things are fucked and unfair poking burn spots with the fag against my ingrown hairs in-between the sealed up cuts on my arms that start to glow red as my body starts to rise in temperature strike like matches you can wake up early in the morning when you have a good reason to need to the landscape scales steeply, with it's contours holding it's insides like an empty bowl the hill is too sloped to jump off of reminds me of back home take too many parts apart, have to reattach a few come back home to the last night I spend with you your things are being put in a box and your things will be moving in soon too many things being taken out too much things moved to one room the death stairs eyes it's next victim the flowers coming into bloom about twenty or so days until I see you days getting longer, things not getting any worse things not getting any better. things not getting less hurt thistles caressing my legs, sun missing my eyes god knows god...
im inventing new ways to die ways to die that no one ever has done before im inventing new ways to die something without guilt something without pain something without you burning isnt enough falling isnt enough drowning isnt enough i need to die spectacularly but just for my own eyes my descent into oblivion im inventing new ways to die im daydreaming for a world that doesnt matter where goodbye doesnt mean anything im inventing new ways to die goodbye goodbye goodbye and thank you
I want to say that whatever happens from here on out is my fault I will never stop running I will never stop being scared I will never stop being paranoid I will never stop feeling like I'm never enough For you, for you, for you, for anyone, for myself I'm sorry for staying in my corner and refusing to face you I'm sorry for choosing to stay miserable I know better than this I don't know if *I'm* better than this It's hard to believe that we live under the same sky Because you don't see those same stars that I see right now I wear my summer clothes in the winter You wear your winter clothes in the summer I'm moving away forever one day But don't hold me to that I only write these things so I can Understand my feelings Please understand my feelings I'm sorry for only ever thinking about my own feelings These leaves will change colour next season And the next, and the next, and the next I'm so sorry for being unfair I'm so sorry for projec...
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