new evils, old comforts

New evils and old comforts

I started yearning again for an older brother I never will have

Maybe I am as gross as they have said

I'm settled into my new house

I had a terrible nightmare about it looking like the old place

I woke up in my own body again the morning after

Goddamn, these assumptions will be the death of me

I stare at these sigils that I can't read

I paint myself in symbols that you can't read

Contracts

And legible scrawl 

Meant to me naught at all

Are you telling me to fuck off for good? 

Whisper it gently to me

Hold your breath when you kiss me farewell

Faults and all

How can someone with damage like you embody such perfection

The vampire begs for sun

Sugar in the fuel tank, diesel in the jar

Halloween candy pulls my teeth apart

And I start to bleed in your mouth

On the day that I disappeared,

I watched you from the top of the stairs

Your eyes shot right through me like a ghost

Fate is talking to me today

and I sing my damned affirmations like a hail mary

I will get what I want, I will get what I deserve