a girl named modesty

I wear modestly girly clothes as not to make myself feel uncomfortable
I buy modestly priced things as not to make myself feel poor
I cook modestly delicious fried rice and fish as not to let myself get hungry
I be modest yet honest with my doctors about how much sex I have as to satiate their invasive questions
I drink a new flavour of energy drink as not to let myself get tired

It's too hot today as I exhaustedly melt into the floor
each minute turns into a slow crawl
like a snail crawling on the edge of a razor blade as marlon brando would say
I feel myself quietly dying so slowly
we tear into eachother with our teeth and claws when we get hungry
and I'm just trying to live like any regular person
with a full stomach
and a proper shape and form
I just want to try to be modest

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