to be kindred with the on-set behind the scenes camera guy

i am sitting behind yet another layer of observational practice as i watch you amble around set, capturing bullshit with non-existent steadiness in your grip and no sense of framing.

i tick past each 10 second clip - passing judgements - this says nothing - this is cute - this is worthless - this is interesting. i have all the time in the world to decide - you had no choice but to be quick on your feet. watching these moments and being made to curate them - were you lonely? sorry to impose, but i would be. 

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